Joined: Aug 27, 2002 Posts: 16987 Location: Kansas
Posted:
Thu Aug 12, 2004 10:02 pm
Thanks to everyone. Was up to see him and all I can say is, please God, take him quickly . He is so swollen and can't talk. And now the hospital intends to dismiss him as they can do no more. These next few days will be exhausting, for everyone. Even so, Come Lord Jesus!
Joined: Aug 27, 2002 Posts: 16987 Location: Kansas
Posted:
Fri Aug 13, 2004 10:59 pm
<sigh> This morning the Doc had come in to talk about next steps. Before he could talk with my dad, my dad said to my mom "I want to call it quits". The doctor explained that the feeding tube was basically all that was sustaining him as my dad stopped eating several days ago. My dad agreed to stop that. The tube was removed at 10:45am. We moved my dad to Hospice at 6:00pm. The Doctor gave him 1 week at tops. I would doubt that. We are okay with this. It just hurts with a pain that is indescribable when you cry. Even the texture of the tears are different. He asked me "how long?". He also said "we don't have any options, do we?". He's worried about Mom. We assured him she would be taken care of. He then told her he loved her and asked her for a kiss. I can't believe how much the human heart can bear. I am filled with joy that my dad openly says "I have to go to Heaven". I am filled with sorrow knowing that we haven't much time. So many wasted moments. Nothing to do about those now. A hug - a look - he stares emptily as the Parkenson's tightens its hold and wrings forth the little life that he struggles to have. He seems at peace right now in Hospice. He knows. He loves us.
I'll be thinking of you all and praying for a quick release for your Father, Raven. I know what you're going thru right now.
My own Mum died of cancer 15 years ago now, although it seems like months.
I nursed her for 5 years while she, like your Dad, fought against cancer to survive, then the last few weeks I was with her almost 24/7 while she was in the Hospice. I used to pray for the Lord to take her every night, as I couldnt bear to see her suffering.
It breaks you're heart, and you pray for them to be taken quickly, and at the same time feel guilty and selfish for feeling that way.
There is nothing worse in the world than to watch a loved one suffer and be so helpless.
I was thankful that I had that time to talk to my Mum about things maybe we would never have spoken and kept inside if life had been different..
Small consolation for the suffering you have to bear at this time, but still a precious time to share our most prescious thoughts and emotions. And that alone is a great comfort.
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